Paralyzed

The other night I had a dream I was paralyzed. It was a "dreamy-dream" consisting of nothing I recognized except myself and C.

Usually when I dream I am located in a place I recognize, but, crazy things are different like whole portions of my house are there that don't really exist or that everything is normal except that I can speak French....Those I consider "regular dreams".

Anyway.

In this dream we were on the second-floor outdoor living space of an Antebellum-ish home. We were napping on a porch swing/bed and I woke up, got off of the strange contraption walked a few steps then fell over - totally paralyzed on my right side. I was just laying there very confused for a few moments until I started yelling out for C...and he wouldn't stir. No matter how loud I yelled for him or how much flailing I did, I couldn't get his attention. The End. I woke almost immediately and started to think, "if we ever build a custom home - I want a second floor porch with a porch swing" and then back to sleep...

The next morning (ahem, afternoon) while we were showering (yes, together - we're adults) I told him about it. I couldn't figure it out, until I said the details aloud. Why would I be having this dream? At first I was a little scared because my back has been hurting - what if it was some sort of foreshadow...?? Of course it isn't! It took a minute, but, I got it - C helped - I was dreaming I was paralyzed because in a way I am. I am paralyzed in my career and in Indiana because I can't get to him. I can't move without a new job, I can't really move on with life until I sell my house, I can't sell my house until I move and I can't move without a job....it is a huge, annoying, and yes,paralyzing circle.

Xxoo,
Frootie!

Transformers

Turkey is drawing Wookers a transformers picture and she is making a blue one and a red one and I got her orange and purple colored pencil and she said "Frootie!-there is not a purple or orange transformers!" And I said - "apparently I know nothing about transformers..." And she said " you should watch it! - I have to go get yellow for bumblebee". Haha. It was then I realized she knew what she was talking about! Amazing kid.

Xxoo,
Frootie!

When Harry met Sally

It had to be you. It had to be you.  I wandered around and I finally found the somebody who....

My favorite part of the whole movie is at the end, at the NYE party when Harry says: 

I love that after I spend the day with you I can still smell your perfume on my clothes.  And, I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night....  I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with someone, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.

I also love the song "I Could Write a Book" by Harry Connick Jr.  "If they asked me I could write a book.  About the way you walk and whisper and look."  

xxoo,

Frootie!

Happiness

It's funny...  

Happiness is something you think you have and then what you thought was happiness is gone and you're miserable.  

But then...

You find happy in a way you never knew could exist.  For some people it takes a while and for some it comes very quickly.  

Interestingly enough, I am one of those who found it very quickly after my mediocre happiness disappeared.  If you keep up with my blog you know what I mean, but you don't know the details.  I feel like telling you them now....

Eight months ago tomorrow I told my husband to leave.  He hadn't loved me enough for at least a year...maybe more.  I knew it was the right thing to do, but I still felt horrible.  I felt like every inch of my insides were turning to stone.  I had been out of town for several days and when I came back nothing felt right.  He wasn't excited for me to be home, he was distant, he was weird.  I got home on Monday, I kicked him out on Thursday.  He was extra weird on Wednesday night, Thursday morning I checked his texts and he had texted his friend to say he wanted to be with the other woman "more than anything in the world".  Ouch.  But, at the same time, comforting.  I knew he was cheating.  I had known for almost 2 years.  I knew it started innocently enough...but it was still cheating, it was unacceptable, and I lived with it, which in itself is unacceptable.  But, I thought he would get over it.  I never thought it would go anywhere.  It did.  He left.  He moved in with her.

Rewind back to being out of town.  I was at my cousin's wedding in Georgia.  My Aunt introduced me to the Best Man (I know now...this is the best title for him).  It was just a "hey, how are ya" kind of meeting.  Nothing of it.  He was cute, very cute, but there were other things on my mind, namely 8 large glasses of red wine.  Fast Forward.  I facebook friended all the people I met at the wedding.  I friended him.  I emailed him.  I asked him how on earth he was doing it.  How on earth are you functioning?  He replied, it was short, something about his little girl and how he wasn't much help if I didn't have kids.  My feelings were a little hurt, but, he didn't owe me anything so I let it go.    The next few days were a bit of a whirlwind.  But, somehow, we went on our first date on July 22nd.  Yes, that's right, just a few days after my marriage ended.  We met in Louisville for PF Chang's and our date lasted somewhere around 4 hours.  

This cute boy and I spent some time together.  We spent weekends together when we could, we went to the lake, then...all of a sudden it was a constant thing...we were together all the time.  Well, as much as we could be, since we live in different states.  We fell in love.  And we fell hard.  It happened very fast.  Now we are talking about babies and marriage and happily ever after.

Happiness, it is a funny thing.

xxoo,

Frootie!

Wow Weekend - for around $100 bucks!

This weekend was so wonderful.  The weather was amazing and the little girl and her cute daddy came to visit!  

I wish I had spent more time twittering all the cuteness...but oh well.

First of all there are tons of pictures on Flickr.  

Ok, here's the rundown:  

Friday they arrived in the late afternoon.  Cute Boy took a little nap while Turkey and I made a card for Jeff.  His birthday was earlier this week, but it was cake and ice cream night at the Fuqua's.  We went to Chicago's for pizza dinner.  We had a half peperoni and half cheese pizza.  Turkey ate 3 - 3! pieces of pizza.  It was delicious.  I pigged out and ate 3 slices and all the crust....  oopsy.  Cost: $3 for tip.  We had a gift certificate.  We went to the Fuqua's for cake and ice cream.  It was a good time.  Rachel said that Miss Ellen really enjoyed Turkey.  Turkey really liked Jeff.  I quote "Oh, yes!  He's the birfday boy!  Happy birfday to you...." 

Saturday we hit the Children's Museum and the Zoo.  It was a long day but really a great time.  We enjoyed every minute with only a couple 4 year old dramatic moments.  My friend Paula and her kiddos met us at the Children's Museum.  She has a 4 year old too, just one week older than the little turkey.  We checked out the dinosaurs, the fireworks of glass exhibit, the lego castle, the comics exhibit, and the carousel.  It was super fun.  Paula was awesome enough to pack us a nice lunch so the kids snacked and we snacked and all was well in the world.  The Children's Museum was pricey - $38.50 Carousel: $1/kiddo total: $40.50  The Zoo was awesome!  The weather was a prize.  Best day we could ask for.  The sun was shining and it was crowded but not too crowded.  We saw all sorts of good animals and there was lots of smiling and giggling.  Turkey loved petting the sharks.  I didn't get any photos of that (it was way too dark) but I took a few here at the giraffes and there, with the meercats.  We also went to the White River Garden to check out the beautiful flowers.  Best day I have had in a very long time.  Zoo - $23.50 pretzel, ice cream sandwich, and sprite $7 (good deal) total: $30.50

This morning we tried to make cinnamon rolls, but clearly there was an issue with the rolls because they were moosh.  We hit up El Nino for some Mexican lunch instead.  The waiter was really annoying and that made me a bit grouchy - but such is life.  When we got back home, Dori was feeling bad (her legs have been hurting her puppyness), so we all got in bed and watch Curious George.  It was a really cute movie!  El Nino $25 (including tip).  

Total for the big fun weekend: $99 - Sweet Action.

These numbers don't include: groceries, gas, snacks bought at the gas station on Saturday evening.  

On another Note, I have the cute boy reading up on Harry Potter.  He has to be ready for the new movie in July!  

xxoo,

Frootie!

Top 10 movies

I was talking to the cute boy today and decided I should write a Top 10 movies list.  Here goes, in no particular order:

1. The Sandlot
2. 13 going on 30
3. The Little Mermaid
4. The Mummy and The Mummy Returns
5. You've Got Mail
6. When Harry Met Sally
7. Rumor Has It
8. Family Stone
9. Hope Floats
10. 10 Things I Hate About You

I am not saying these are the best movies ever or even close - these are just movies I can watch over and over and over again.  

xxoo,

Frootie!

100 Things

Too much information I'm sure....

100.  I love weddings.

99.  I am fully capable of killing someone with kindness.

98.  Cupcakes and Cookies are awesome.

97.  I watch too much tv.

96.  I have to have my toenails painted or I feel naked.

95.  I enjoy nudity.

94.  My favorite Disney movie is "Little Mermaid"

93.  I have been to Vegas twice.

92.  I am a pescetarian.

91.  I love butter.

90.  I love my dog Dori a bunch.

89.  I enjoy black and white patterns.

88.  Blackberry addict.

87.  I have met the Jonas Brothers and Demi Lovato.

86.  Facebook addict.

85.  I like something about every season.

84.  I love summer for the lake.

83.  I love spring for the flowers and the chirpy birds.

82.  I love winter for the snow.

81.  I love fall for the leaves, the pumpkins, the pumpkin pie, and halloween.

80.  I have a divorce in my toolbox.  I use this tool for pretty much every decision I make.

79.  My mom gets on my nerves because we are very similar.

78.  I have a very vivid imagination.

77.  I could eat pasta every day.

76.  Today I went to the store.  I bought 4 cans of tomato sauce, 4 cans of petite diced tomatoes, and 4 cans of quartered artichokes.  

75.  I love red wine.

74.  I love sushi.

73.  My favorite song is "Come on get higher" but I like the Sugarland live version better than Matt Nathanson.  My bad.

72.  I really want a super nice Kitchenaid Mixer.

71.  I like to watch Food Network.

70.  My boyfriend makes the best canned cinnamon rolls ever.

69.  Flavored unsweetened iced tea is delish.  Currently I have ginger tea.

68.  I have brown eyes.

67.  I used to bite my nails and still do occasionally.

66.  Sometimes I like commercials better than the actual tv show.

65.  Kissing is my favorite past time.

64.  I want to have at least 2 bebies.

63.  I enjoy baby names.

62.  Lucy, Nora, and Gillian are my current favorite girls names.

61.  I am not so picky on boys names because all the names old fashioned and people don't like them.  George, Henry, Oliver, and Merrill

60.  Black is my favorite color.

59.  Pink is a close second.

58.  I love to take pictures.  

57.  I am a Delta Gamma

56.  I was a religious studies major in college.

55.  I am currently reading 3 books.

54.  I want a station wagon.

53.  I have a slight addiction to costume jewelry.

52.  I want my life to be like a fairy tale.

51.  I will never purchase another PC.  I am a Mac girl.

50.  I will never own a camera that isn't a Canon.  Well, never own a DSLR that isn't a Canon.

49.  I love Amazon.com

48.  I love ... ... ... I use ... all the time!  Dot Dot Dot - in every email, every blog post, every BBM, every txt.  It's true.

47.  My favorite place to eat lunch is Chipotle.

46.  I could watch Hope Floats over and over.

45.  I am a heavy coffee drinker.

44.  Someday I want to make a list like this only with things I want to do.

43.  The best meal I have ever eaten was at the Sunset Coastal Grill in Port St Joe, Fl.  It was a black pepper crusted pan seared Ahi.  Beautiful.  I just checked their menu online - they don't have it anymore.

42.  I love beans.  I can make a pot of beans and eat them for a week and be happy as a lark.

41.  I love bird things.  Bird necklaces, bird prints, bird representations.  But, I don't like birds.

40.  Cats are my favorite pets - but I am in love with someone who is allergic...such is life.  Someday we'll have a farm and I can have some outside kitties.

39.  I never thought I would date someone with a kiddo.  Now, I am, and it is awesome.  Being with that little girl is the highlight of my week.

38.  My very favorite car is a Mini Cooper.  They make me smile.

37.  My favorite flower is a gerbera daisy.  I like them in bright pink, orange, and red.

36.  Someday I want a giant diamond.  

35.  Bed is my favorite place.  Resting, sleeping, cuddling, all of it.

34.  I love sex.  

33.  I enjoy a clean kitchen.  Counter tops free of clutter.  Tables with nothing on them - or maybe just a neat stack of things.

32.  I love magazines.  They have shiny pages.

31.  I look forward to making memories with my children.  Saturday morning cartoons in bed with cinnamon rolls.  Dressing up on Sundays for church.  Singing songs in the car.  Family photos on the beach.

30.  I have a really bad habit of saying "hey, how are you?" waiting for the response and expecting a "great how are you?" - it is so bad, the other day I asked how someone was they responded "fine" and I responded "I'm fabulous".... loser.  I am still embarrassed.

29.  Corn meal fried....  Perfect combo for me.  Anything with this as the breading is delicious.

28.  I went to Franklin College.  I loved it, but I often wonder how different I would be as a person if I had gone to a larger school.

27.  I was a cheerleader.

26.  I am a lover not a fighter.

25.  I am 27 years old.  I can't wait to grow old with my love.

24.  I am so happy to have a boyfriend who has a super family.

23.  Happily Ever After is my goal in life.

22.  I cry a lot.

21.  I hate being tickled by being poked in the ribs but I love being tickled lovingly.  Fingertips lightly grazing my skin.  Score.

20.  I feel sorry for parents with ugly kids.

19.  My favorite nature made foods are tomatoes, spinach, artichokes, asparagus, and tuna.

18.   Food is my favorite thing - clearly.

17.  I have the most fun when there is no television involved.

16.  SUNGLASSES.

15.  I have nice tatas.

14.  Sometimes I wish I had a beautiful tattoo.

13.  Tina Fey is hilarious.  I wish I could be funny.

12.  I wish I could be a kid again and go to summer day care.  Skating Rink on Tuesdays and Thursdays.  Pool on Fridays.

11.  I enjoy Jason Mraz's music.  Also: Michael Buble and Joshua Radin.  I could listen to those 3 all day.

10.  I frequently take photos of myself.  It's sad.

9.  Thunderstorms are beautiful.

8.  Sand between my toes is pretty close to heaven.

7.  I love the Beatles.

6.  I like to swim.  Being in the water - pool, lake, ocean - is better than a massage.

5.  Five is my favorite number.

4.  I won't leave the house without mascara on.

3.  I wish I could have movie star hair.

2.  Waking up next to the man I love is my favorite thing.

1.  I am in love.