I so much.

This morning Prince C brought Nori in to lay in bed with us for a bit. She crawled in and cuddled right up with me sharing my pillow. In her sweetest moment to date she says "I lub you Mommy" and I responded "I love you Nora" and cuddled her extra close. Then she flipped over again and said."I so much!" what a sweet little lovey honeybee I have. "I love you so much Nora!"

xxoo,
Frootie!

Fear

Sometimes I really need to get a grip. Those sometimes usually happen in the days after my past invades my dreamscape. My past. A failed marriage before the third anniversary.

Failure.

A few days back that past barged into my dreams. In said dream Prince C and I were on a little getaway (we are planning something for our anniversary) and the past and his present were there. We were all at the same restaurant (or something of the sort) and that was that. Ships in the night. No real interaction, just faces in the crowd. Since that nightmare of sorts - the shit hath hitteth the fan eth- in my brain.

I fear losing what I have now. I fear failure again. Do i really ever ever ever ever ever have a reason to think that - NO ABSO-FREAKING-LUTELY NOT. My life is perfect. Look the word up in the dictionary...the definition is "Frootie's marriage". My brain just has seizures and drags history into the photograph even though that history doesn't involve my present.

Get out of my brain you pesky a-hole. OUT. OUT. OUT.

I love every centimeter, every crevasse of what I have right now. Turkey, Nora, Hammy, and Prince C are all a dream come true. I have more than I ever imagined I would have. Why won't the nightmares end??

xxoo,
Frootie!

Help

Y'all for real I need help. Here are the things I have ruined my child by allowing and I am not sure how to break it.

1. TV in bed. Usually Nemo and she always stays up to late.
2. Milk. Chocolate milk. She's on her THIRD cuppie right now. Oh gosh.
3. Not wanting to sleep or stay in her room.

She's 2 and a half. Am I doomed for all eternity?

xxoo,
Frootie!

Holy Crap

Oh my goodness, I can't believe I have let my blog lay dormant for over 6 months. I guess I needed the break. The last several months have been a total whirlwind. I cannot believe summer is almost over. Here is a list of things I HAVE NOT accomplished this summer:
-Nora is not potty trained yet
-She did not take swimming lessons
-I have not had my carpet cleaned....or had a clean house at any point this summer
-I have not slept more than 6 hours straight more than once since Graham was born. When I was sick back in June and Clinton was off work - he stayed up with the kids and let me sleep all night and sleep late into he morning.
-I didn't paint the girls' beds or clean out the garage
-I didn't get rid of any of the excess crap we don't need.

Here is a short list of what I have done:
-I painted my dresser green. I LOVE it.
-I got a minivan! I LOVE it
-I saw Dark Knight Rises. It was good
-I turned 31 and celebrated by eating at my fave place, Windy Corner.
-We found a church we LOVE. Praise the Lord!
-We have mostly kept up with the 366 days photos. I can't wait to make a book of those pix!

Xxoo,
Frootie!