Sunday, August 14, 2011


2 things. First: Nora says "Shew!" when I say "Shew!". It's cute. I usually say it when it's hot and I'm toting her and my purse and my lunchbox and I've been at work all day and I'm exhausted, but when she says it all the "Shew!" in me goes away and all I can feel is love and joy for that baby. She is such a dream come true for me.

Second: I am going to be a mother of 2 babies soon and stepmom to a big girl. How on God's green earth am I going to be ready for all this? What made me think I could do it? Here's the deal, I know I can do it. I know that it will get easier in several years, but right now, and about once every week I get overwhelmed. I am overwhelmed with all of the things I need to do before Baby Noodle arrives. Here is my list:

-Get the carpet cleaned
-Get rid of all of Nora's clothes that don't fit and that I don't want to keep for her little girl someday
-Paint Ella's room
-Paint the dresser under the tv and the shoe holder
-buy twin beds, 2 dressers, and a bookshelf from Ikea
-buy Baby Noodle's bedding
-Train Nora to stay in a twin bed

I am also overwhelmed by the thought of having 2 little babes. What if Nora doesn't love him? What if the girls are jealous? What if I have PPD this time? I didn't last time, but what if this one is different? Scary. So many questions - So many insecurities.


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