The other night I had a dream I was paralyzed. It was a "dreamy-dream" consisting of nothing I recognized except myself and C.
Usually when I dream I am located in a place I recognize, but, crazy things are different like whole portions of my house are there that don't really exist or that everything is normal except that I can speak French....Those I consider "regular dreams".
In this dream we were on the second-floor outdoor living space of an Antebellum-ish home. We were napping on a porch swing/bed and I woke up, got off of the strange contraption walked a few steps then fell over - totally paralyzed on my right side. I was just laying there very confused for a few moments until I started yelling out for C...and he wouldn't stir. No matter how loud I yelled for him or how much flailing I did, I couldn't get his attention. The End. I woke almost immediately and started to think, "if we ever build a custom home - I want a second floor porch with a porch swing" and then back to sleep...
The next morning (ahem, afternoon) while we were showering (yes, together - we're adults) I told him about it. I couldn't figure it out, until I said the details aloud. Why would I be having this dream? At first I was a little scared because my back has been hurting - what if it was some sort of foreshadow...?? Of course it isn't! It took a minute, but, I got it - C helped - I was dreaming I was paralyzed because in a way I am. I am paralyzed in my career and in Indiana because I can't get to him. I can't move without a new job, I can't really move on with life until I sell my house, I can't sell my house until I move and I can't move without a job....it is a huge, annoying, and yes,paralyzing circle.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Turkey is drawing Wookers a transformers picture and she is making a blue one and a red one and I got her orange and purple colored pencil and she said "Frootie!-there is not a purple or orange transformers!" And I said - "apparently I know nothing about transformers..." And she said " you should watch it! - I have to go get yellow for bumblebee". Haha. It was then I realized she knew what she was talking about! Amazing kid.
Monday, March 16, 2009
It had to be you. It had to be you. I wandered around and I finally found the somebody who....
My favorite part of the whole movie is at the end, at the NYE party when Harry says:
I love that after I spend the day with you I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And, I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night.... I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with someone, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.
I also love the song "I Could Write a Book" by Harry Connick Jr. "If they asked me I could write a book. About the way you walk and whisper and look."
Monday, March 9, 2009
Happiness is something you think you have and then what you thought was happiness is gone and you're miserable.
You find happy in a way you never knew could exist. For some people it takes a while and for some it comes very quickly.
Interestingly enough, I am one of those who found it very quickly after my mediocre happiness disappeared. If you keep up with my blog you know what I mean, but you don't know the details. I feel like telling you them now....
Eight months ago tomorrow I told my husband to leave. He hadn't loved me enough for at least a year...maybe more. I knew it was the right thing to do, but I still felt horrible. I felt like every inch of my insides were turning to stone. I had been out of town for several days and when I came back nothing felt right. He wasn't excited for me to be home, he was distant, he was weird. I got home on Monday, I kicked him out on Thursday. He was extra weird on Wednesday night, Thursday morning I checked his texts and he had texted his friend to say he wanted to be with the other woman "more than anything in the world". Ouch. But, at the same time, comforting. I knew he was cheating. I had known for almost 2 years. I knew it started innocently enough...but it was still cheating, it was unacceptable, and I lived with it, which in itself is unacceptable. But, I thought he would get over it. I never thought it would go anywhere. It did. He left. He moved in with her.
Rewind back to being out of town. I was at my cousin's wedding in Georgia. My Aunt introduced me to the Best Man (I know now...this is the best title for him). It was just a "hey, how are ya" kind of meeting. Nothing of it. He was cute, very cute, but there were other things on my mind, namely 8 large glasses of red wine. Fast Forward. I facebook friended all the people I met at the wedding. I friended him. I emailed him. I asked him how on earth he was doing it. How on earth are you functioning? He replied, it was short, something about his little girl and how he wasn't much help if I didn't have kids. My feelings were a little hurt, but, he didn't owe me anything so I let it go. The next few days were a bit of a whirlwind. But, somehow, we went on our first date on July 22nd. Yes, that's right, just a few days after my marriage ended. We met in Louisville for PF Chang's and our date lasted somewhere around 4 hours.
This cute boy and I spent some time together. We spent weekends together when we could, we went to the lake, then...all of a sudden it was a constant thing...we were together all the time. Well, as much as we could be, since we live in different states. We fell in love. And we fell hard. It happened very fast. Now we are talking about babies and marriage and happily ever after.
Happiness, it is a funny thing.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
This weekend was so wonderful. The weather was amazing and the little girl and her cute daddy came to visit!
I wish I had spent more time twittering all the cuteness...but oh well.
First of all there are tons of pictures on Flickr.
Ok, here's the rundown:
Friday they arrived in the late afternoon. Cute Boy took a little nap while Turkey and I made a card for Jeff. His birthday was earlier this week, but it was cake and ice cream night at the Fuqua's. We went to Chicago's for pizza dinner. We had a half peperoni and half cheese pizza. Turkey ate 3 - 3! pieces of pizza. It was delicious. I pigged out and ate 3 slices and all the crust.... oopsy. Cost: $3 for tip. We had a gift certificate. We went to the Fuqua's for cake and ice cream. It was a good time. Rachel said that Miss Ellen really enjoyed Turkey. Turkey really liked Jeff. I quote "Oh, yes! He's the birfday boy! Happy birfday to you...."
Saturday we hit the Children's Museum and the Zoo. It was a long day but really a great time. We enjoyed every minute with only a couple 4 year old dramatic moments. My friend Paula and her kiddos met us at the Children's Museum. She has a 4 year old too, just one week older than the little turkey. We checked out the dinosaurs, the fireworks of glass exhibit, the lego castle, the comics exhibit, and the carousel. It was super fun. Paula was awesome enough to pack us a nice lunch so the kids snacked and we snacked and all was well in the world. The Children's Museum was pricey - $38.50 Carousel: $1/kiddo total: $40.50 The Zoo was awesome! The weather was a prize. Best day we could ask for. The sun was shining and it was crowded but not too crowded. We saw all sorts of good animals and there was lots of smiling and giggling. Turkey loved petting the sharks. I didn't get any photos of that (it was way too dark) but I took a few here at the giraffes and there, with the meercats. We also went to the White River Garden to check out the beautiful flowers. Best day I have had in a very long time. Zoo - $23.50 pretzel, ice cream sandwich, and sprite $7 (good deal) total: $30.50
This morning we tried to make cinnamon rolls, but clearly there was an issue with the rolls because they were moosh. We hit up El Nino for some Mexican lunch instead. The waiter was really annoying and that made me a bit grouchy - but such is life. When we got back home, Dori was feeling bad (her legs have been hurting her puppyness), so we all got in bed and watch Curious George. It was a really cute movie! El Nino $25 (including tip).
Total for the big fun weekend: $99 - Sweet Action.
These numbers don't include: groceries, gas, snacks bought at the gas station on Saturday evening.
On another Note, I have the cute boy reading up on Harry Potter. He has to be ready for the new movie in July!
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
I was talking to the cute boy today and decided I should write a Top 10 movies list. Here goes, in no particular order:
- The Sandlot
- 13 going on 30
- The Little Mermaid
- The Mummy and The Mummy Returns
- You've Got Mail
- When Harry Met Sally
- Rumor Has It
- Family Stone
- Hope Floats
- 10 Things I Hate About You
I am not saying these are the best movies ever or even close - these are just movies I can watch over and over and over again.