Wednesday, December 31, 2008


My girlfriend Rachel is in labor. She was induced yesterday....


The doctors finally decided to take Helen via emergency C-section.  


Thursday, December 25, 2008

Tropical Punch

Me: Did you finish your tropical punch?
Turkey: *with sass* YES *grin*
Me: *with sass* Can you throw the pouch away then?
Turkey: *with sass* NO
Me: Well, it would be awesome if you would *grin*
Turkey: Whatever! *then she throws it away*

Funny Kid.
Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night!


Tuesday, December 23, 2008


Why on earth are we having an ice storm right now? Come on weather - just cooperate with me! I have big plans for this Christmas and New Year's time!

I have:
-a party at Rebecca's tonight where I am going to get to see folks I haven't seen in over a year!
-Uh, well, truth told i don't have anything tomorrow until Midnight Mass....but I want to go to that too.
-Christmas Day - Grandma, Grandpa, Ruthie, and Rachel are driving from Virginia. Clearly, the weather needs to be not snowy and icy for that!
-Friday-Sunday we are going to C's mom's house with the Turkey! I am so very excited! I can't wait to spend 3 days with that little girl! Oh my goodness, it is going to be so wonderful!

Next week:
-I am planning a trip to Ikea in Cincy.
-New Year's Eve all I am planning on doing is hanging with C - so I guess the weather doesn't really matter BUT...
-New Year's day at the Lake to Celebrate Christmas with Mama and Nannie and Daddy and Papaw....and C! So on Jan 1, I need good weather! I need happy traveling sunshine and temps above freezing OR below freezing and no slick spots or snow.

Anyway folks - it's going to be a busy and FUN FUN FUN 10 days....All I am asking for is happy weather!


Monday, December 22, 2008


Don't judge me.  I do what I want to do and what makes me feel good.  So shoot me because I want to be nice to people.  Dammit - my girl scout's sash is so gonna be full when I get to Heaven.


a couple random thoughts

  1. I think something in C's brain ain't wired right.  He called a bit ago and was singing a silly song about getting me a Christmas present and me not knowing what it is.  He's cute.
  2. I bought some vegan pepperoni and salami the other day.  I am eating the pepperoni right now and oh my gosh!  I have missed pepperoni.
  3. 2 things you can't say around Turkey because "that's not nice": Oh my God and Shut up Grandma.  Now you know.
  4. I had the best weekend.  
  5. It's flipping cold outside.  It's 9, uh, 9 degrees.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008


It is shocking to me that the world's dumbest dog did something stupid and then smart....  

Abbey poo-d her cage while I was out this evening.  It is totally unlike her and I know why - she chowed down on cat food today.  A-hole ... it is CAT food for a reason.  

Anyway -

She totally flipped her pillow over so she didn't have to sleep in the poo.  Amazing.


Tuesday, December 16, 2008

10 on Tuesday - Christmas Edition!

  1. My favorite Christmas Movies are:   Old - Christmas Vacation New - Elf
  2. When I was a kid I could never ever sleep on Christmas Eve.  I knew if I went to sleep Christmas would come faster...but I just couldn't do it!  I think this year is going to be the same way.  I am so excited!
  3. Christmas Music is my favorite kind of music.  I used to love the Christmas Concerts at school, at church, in my car.....
  4. I loved Honey Baked Ham heated in the skillet until it got dry on can biscuits.  Yum.  Now I don't eat meat....Sad.
  5. I was a really bad kid.  I always knew what I was getting for Christmas.  I don't know that I ever had a Christmas where I didn't know what I was getting.  This year will be the first. 
  6. I remember a year when we lived in Texas....we drove all the way from there to KY to see family.  It was long and horrible.  I really don't want to do that to my kids.  I always had a great time once we got where we were going, but, jeez the driving!
  7. The most awful Christmas Break memories....  Bad hair - forever documented by Rebecca and I in photos.  Oh my gosh!  The one year - Middle School time-frame with the hideous sweatshirts and greasy bangs.  
  8. I have always had a tacky Christmas tree....A lot of colors, a lot of glitter, a lot of ornaments!
  9. My family stockings say: Norma O, Larry O, and Hillary O.  When Mom and Daddy got married I called Daddy "Daddy O" so we all became O-people....
  10. This Christmas is going to be SO AWESOME.

Monday, December 15, 2008

Busy Busy!

I have been so busy lately!  Busy with work, busy at home, busy!

Last week I went to Michigan for 3 days.  I had a whole gaggle of audits to do...But, I did squeeze in a quick visit to Bronner's Christmas Wonderland in Frankenmuth, Mi.  It was really a neat and overwhelming place!  I also ate at the Bavarian Inn for dinner.  It was a good trip.  

Have I mentioned lately that I am ready for Christmas?  No?  Well, I am!


Monday, December 8, 2008

Christmas Email to Mrs. Claus and Response

Christmas List Email to Mrs. Claus:

Dear Santa,
I have been kinda bad this year.  I hope I can still have presents.
Here's my list:
  • Canon EOS 50d with the 28-135mm lens
  • A few Marriott rewards points
  • Wool Socks from Sam's.  You know the ones I like.  I will have to remember to roll them so that the cute boyfriend doesn't have an aneurysm.
  • A new charger for my old G4.  Abbey broke mine 2 years ago and I am thinking the duct tape fix might not work much longer.
  • A cruise for 2.  Santa you can go with me, I guess...but I would rather take that cute boyfriend of mine.  (totally a joke) but maybe since Mama Norma is wanting to get her passport - we can all go!
  • Gift card to Sushi on the Rocks downtown...if we can't go on a cruise...we can eat sushi.  It's just as good.
Dori and Abbey have been pretty good - except for that whole Rabbit thing....
They would like:
  • Puppy Cookies
  • a new jar of Skippy All Natural peanut butter - one they don't have to share with Mom.
  • North Pole ice cubes
  • New Kong toys
  • An Elf

Mrs. Claus's Response:

Dear Miss Frootie!,

I will get your list over to our evaluation team, they will check the list to see how bad you have been.  If you rank in the category of "Bad", your list will be rejected and will not make it over for Santa to view.  However, I find it hard to believe you would fall into the "Bad" category.  I have pulled your file and it shows you in the "Perfect Angel" category...I am sure Santa will be reviewing your list shortly.  I do see a post-it note here referencing that really cute boy you're hanging out with...Oh my...What are you and that boy doing...I need to talk to the Elves...I don't think they should put this kind of thing in know what...I don't think Santa should see this...there is no way I could do that...Oh naughty little better be good...Santa's watching you...

Dori and Abbey,
You have been very good puppies...Santa will bring you lots of treats!  Your mom is on the "Watch that Girl List"...Maybe you all should go with her when she leaves the house to ensure she stays out of trouble.

Mrs.  Claus

Thursday, December 4, 2008


I am ready to jump in.  I am tired of just being in between.  I hate only seeing him on the weekends.  I want to wake up to his sweet face every morning and go to bed next to him every night.  


Wednesday, December 3, 2008


Sometimes I really just want to run away. Sometimes I wish my mother would say what she means rather than warning me about what could happen. Sometimes I wish she would say what she means rather than saying I need to do what makes me happy. Sometimes I wish my 3 year marriage never happened and that my 10 year relationship never began. Sometimes I have regrets. Today is one of those sometimes.


Tuesday, December 2, 2008


So much for writing a post everyday I was on vacation!  I lied.  

I had a really lovely vacation and it was really relaxing and wonderful, but I really missed C.  Really, really, really - I have never missed anyone like that.  I will never do it again.  Never ever again will we spend a holiday apart.  


Wednesday, November 26, 2008

VB: Take 3

I arrived at Bay Point yesterday in the early afternoon. I checked in a got settled in my room. I ran to the mall and found a great dress that I *need*....

Ry and Joseph got here this morning around 1am. I am so glad they came. I had the best time with them.

This is a really boring post for a really great day....Sorry - I am tired. Too many Bourbons and Mimosas.....


Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Vacation a Buffet: Take Two

So this is a combo entry....More info on my vacation as well as a 10 on Tuesday, oh and a promise. I am promising to blog every day from now until next Monday. All of my vacation days....

Here is a summary of yesterday and Sunday.
  • C and I went hunting for a Christmas tree for his house. We heard that Garden Ridge had trees for $25 and we got excited....but wait, they were liars. They had something for $25 but no way in h-e-double hockey sticks would it pass as a Christmas tree for us!
  • Ha Ha - it is kinda sad but Sunday really only needs one bullet point! The rest of the day we watched football and snoozed.


  • C didn't have an appointment until 11a so we stayed in bed extra long and then got up and ate Cinnamon rolls. He is a pro at those!
  • I went over to Bec's to see the kiddos and we had a fun time. We ate a Fazoli's and went to Wal-Mart! PaR-TaY! Lukers was being silly. He fixed my hair and then he didn't want me to leave when it was time for me to go. Apparently today he is asking where I am and if he gets to see me today. No, Lukers - tomorrow. Tomorrow we will all be at the beach together. You may see me then!
  • Last night we watched Wall-E - it was adorable and we also watched 300. I really liked 300. Go figure....I hadn't seen it yet because of all the violence and it was a movie that I really enjoyed!

Ok! Now for the Ten on Tuesday: 10 things about about my vacation so far

10. Flying out of Bluegrass Airport....Rocks. No wait anywhere! I had only one super cute family in front of my in line at the check-in counter. At the security checkpoint, the people were super nice. Check out that southern hospitality!

9. Tiny planes suck. I was in row 12....which was the very last row in the tiny plane I was flying in. I did get to sit next to an awesome Golden Girl. She was a sweet pea. She asked me if I was in college and complimented me on how young I look. Woohoo!

8. At the Atlanta Airport, in Terminal D....The bathrooms are really clean (or appear to be). I seriously considered hanging in my stall rather than coming to these airport seats....

7. I am very pleased with my Starbucks Espresso Truffle drink. I know that Starbucks is Starbucks - but you do have to have a little bit of talent to make the drinks spectacular!

6. It is cold in this airport. I got way too hot on my last flight - ie my back got super sweaty - so now I am chillin.

5. There is a young girl breastfeeding next to me. Wow! Motherhood is amazing and I am proud of her for not being shy about the wonder of life. Also, her little boy's name is Killian.

4. I applied for a new job today while I was waiting for my flight out of Bluegrass. I am really excited about it and I hope it works out. It will be a very scary change of pace - but I like scary.

3. C took care of me this weekend. I love that about him. I had a headache yesterday and he adviled me, and watered me, and took care of me. He even did my laundry. KEEPER.

2. About him being a keeper....Can I keep him for real? How did I end up with this boy? Aunt J needs a serious pat on the back.

1. I really wish he was with me right now. I know we need to be with our families....but goodness a whole week apart is going to be a pill. I miss him already and I love him so much.



Sunday, November 23, 2008

Vacation - A Buffet - Take One

People!  I am on vacation!

Currently I am in Lexington enjoying some pre-vacation relaxation.  Here's a list of all the goodness so far:

  • I arrived around 10am - Turkey and I colored and chatted a bit.  "I am going to get the crowns so that we may color together", "May you help me find my Strawberry Shortcake coloring book?", "We can't give up - If we work together we'll find it", "We used teamwork".  Good stuff kids, good stuff.
  • I finally went to see the Dark Knight.  It was good.  But, it was way too long.  They could have made it 2 movies.  But I enjoyed it because the popcorn was delish and there was lots of cuddling.
  • We made appetizers for dinner.  Homemade mozzarella sticks and wings.  C had wings and I had meat-free/soy-free nuggets with buffalo sauce.  Oh, and when I say we - I mean he.  He always does the cooking.
Oh here he comes with the cinnamon rolls for breakfast....Gotta run!


Friday, November 21, 2008


Go see it.  Best movie I have seen in a while. 


Go to bed!  It will make tomorrow come faster.


Thursday, November 20, 2008

Posting from my Blackberry

I am testing out posting from my blackberry....I am working an event for the new device today....this is my 3rd event and quite possibly the most lame. More later.


Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Not so wonderful Wednesday

10 things that are not so great about me:

10.  I am lazy.  I would rather sleep than do much else.
9.  I am a terrible overeater.  I have to fight my bottomless pit syndrome.
8.  I have severe seasonal effective disorder.  I hate the winter when it gets dark at 5pm.
7.  I like to work alone.  I am not much of a team player.
6.  Since I have been cheated on - I tend to be a lot nutty and sensitive.
5.  I am addicted to my cell phone.
4.  I am addicted to the internet.
3.  I like expensive things, but I tend to be cheap.
2.  I am not funny.
1.  I can be a huge bitch.


Shopping with Norma

I went shopping today with my Mama.  We like going to Kohl's because we just got one here in town.  I didn't find a single thing that I wanted to buy.  That is very good.  

I learned today that C likes very traditional Christmas decorations.  White lights and antique looking ornaments.  I really like gawdy Christmas decorations.  Lots of color and glitter and whatnot.  Uh oh.


Monday, November 17, 2008

If I only had the nerve....

If I only had the nerve, I would send this to them.....

Dear B and RA,
I just wanted to have an opportunity to speak my peace with you both.  I know this is written so I am not really speaking but that is a technicality.  Brad's birthday is coming 3 days.  I talked with him today and he said that he didn't think he was going to bring his girlfriend to the family dinner because he wants to ease them into the family.  You know what?!?  You all need to get off your high-horse.  So-freaking-what you all have been married and faithful for approximately one hundred and fifty years (Just to be a huge bitch I will say this - how do you know that you have both been faithful??  Bob smoked and hid that from the family, um that is lying, if you would lie about that - why not lie about sleeping with your best friend??).  You are Christian people (or you call yourselves that) and you need to learn to forgive and forget and to stop judging people.  Your family spends more time in the day judging and making fun of other people than you do breathing!  Brad and Shaundra did the wrong thing, yes.  But, you know what?  They are in love.  They are so in love - it is pretty disgusting for me - but I tolerate it because I just want them to be happy.  Everyone deserves to be happy.  How on earth do you ever expect for them to feel like they need to find a church and be involved with God when people like you (devout Church-going-Christians) cannot love them even with all their baggage.  They didn't even do anything to you!  Oh my God, Brad stained your family reputation - you know what - lots of people think you all are less than perfect....and you are!  No One is perfect except Jesus.  Get over it.  Jesus will love you more for forgiving your son and loving he and his new family more than he will if you spend all your time judging them for their misgivings.  

I have been able to begin to forgive Brad and Shaundra - it has been hard - I am not going to deny it - but I know that all things are meant to be and all things are planned by God.  He has his hand in all this "mess".  Maybe just maybe Brad will be a great father to those little girls.  Maybe just maybe Brad will love Shaundra better than he could ever love me.  Maybe just maybe you're right - it seems that you were right way back in high school when you tried to tell Brad I wasn't good enough for him.  Let me tell you what - I was good enough....I just wasn't the right one.  I was the one who showed Brad how to love, because you didn't teach him the right way.  I was the one who began to show Brad what it means to be responsible, because you didn't show him how - you just took care of things for him and then swept them under the rug.  Sweeping things under the rug does not make them go away!  It makes them add up until you have a giant lump under the rug that eventually gets tripped over.  

I am mad at Shaundra and Brad - but when I hear of all the things that Brad does for her that he would never do for me - I understand.  When I see them together now, I know.  I know it just wasn't right for Brad and I.  We had our time and now it has past, and that is fine. 

I am so very happy now, not that you care one tiny little bit.  Not even once have you thought to reach out and ask if I am ok - but I am.  I am great as a matter of fact.  I have stumbled across a man that I feel is the right one.  He has saved me from the absolute hell that you have put me through for the last 10 years and the hell that Brad and Shaundra have put me through for the last couple years.  He treats me better than I deserve.  I don't have to try to become someone I am not to appeal to him.  I don't have to be Shaundra to be loved.  I can just be me.  AND - my family can just be themselves too.  Not once has he felt the need to pass judgment on my family.  I recently met his mom and you know what?  She liked me.  She liked me, even though I come with quite a bit of baggage and damage.  What a wonderful feeling.  I am sure there will be a time when she and I don't see eye to eye - but you two never even gave me the chance to get there.  You never allowed me into your family the way I wanted to be.  I tried so very hard to be the person that you all thought I should be.  I lost myself in trying to become someone you would approve of.  

Please don't damage another life the way you damaged mine.  Yes, Brad and Shaundra did the wrong thing, but it just isn't your place.  Just love them and the girls as much as you can.  Don't judge her.  She is a nice girl, who made a couple bad decisions, but it looks like those bad decisions panned out for she and your son.  They are happy.  Just be happy for them.


Sunday, November 16, 2008

Hope Floats

"...beginnings are scary, endings are usually sad, it's the middle that counts the most.  You need to remember that when you find yourself at the beginning - just give hope a chance to float up.  And it will too."

Bad Dog

Dori was really really awful today.  After lunch she went into the backyard and cornered a rabbit.  She didn't know what to do with the rabbit so she was just digging at it and barking in a horrible tone.  I was upstairs changing and heard her.  I thought she was hurt so I rushed downstairs and outside to find her with a bunny cornered.  Bad Dog.  I ushered her back into the house and upstairs.  She continued the awful behavior.  She begged and begged to go back outside.  Bad Dog.  I ended up putting her into her crate for a puppy nap.  Bad Dog.


Friday, November 14, 2008

Talking on the phone

I just talked on the phone with the Little Turkey for almost 30 minutes.  

She told me that she has a friend named Rachel too and that her dad burped.  I said "ew, that is gross" and she said  "no it's funny to burp" and that he did it twice and that "boys and girls burp".  I also talked to a puppy for a couple minutes, but I couldn't understand much of what the puppy said....then Turkey came back and said "I'm back".  She has the silliest imagination.  I asked her to write her name for me and she said "um, ok, I am doing it...2 Ls...a circle...done!"  Love her.  C took a picture of her talking to me on the phone.  I have seen the photos but I don't have a copy.  I will add it when I can.


Thursday, November 13, 2008

Life and Time

Yesterday I was in Kentucky for a work event.  I am very excited about a potential opportunity in Lexington, aka closer to C.  There is a gal there who will be moving back to Pennsylvania as soon as she can find a job there.  Her job is a sales position and it is very exciting.  I hope something will pan out for me.


Sunday, November 9, 2008

Wal-Mart sucks.

I just got home from Wal-Mart.  Here are all the things they did that ticked me off:
  • They were out of Wal-Mart brand shells and cheese.
  • They were out of fat free Premium saltines.
  • The price of a 4-pack of Rockstar has gone from $5.96 to $7.04 .
  • The pharmacy closed right as I was walking up to buy some behind the counter cold medicine.
  • When I got home, I poured myself a big cup of Seltzer water - oh yeah, after it sprayed all over me.  



I spent all night last night sleeping in bits and pieces.  I was having nightmares that B was cheating on me with S.  I used to have these dreams and I would wake up and just feel horrible now I wake up and it's true.  It doesn't feel horrible - it just feels annoying.  Get out of my dreams people!  You have no right to invade.  I should be dreaming about C and the Caribbean and sex.  Not you.   Thanks K-Bye.


Hunting and a Baby Shower

It is lonely while he's hunting.  And, last I talked to him - he hasn't gotten anything.  That's a bummer.  

On the other hand - I went to Rachel's baby shower yesterday.  She was kind enough to let me take a picture of her belly with my fisheye lens.  It makes her belly look gigantic!  I love it!

Here is a photo of all us gals too....


Thursday, November 6, 2008

Humane Society - You annoy me.

Tonight I went over to the Humane Society with my parents to meet their new dog, Zippo.  The people who volunteer/work there are kind of awful.  Their attitudes were really off putting to me.  The young gal who was talking to us was almost talking down to my parents and I.  Maybe I was reading too much into it but it was ticking me off.  

We are adopting a dog that is crate trained but not potty trained, will walk on a leash but pulls and jumps constantly, and who is adorable and sweet.  Her behavior is really rude but she is sweet as sugar.  I hope she is a good doggie for my parents - but even if she isn't - we will love her!


Friday, October 31, 2008

I miss her

I miss that little girl.  How has that little turkey - stolen my heart? 

Thursday, October 30, 2008


I really think I need to take a day off just to clean my house....but if I take the day off I need to take some sort of drugs to make me stay super focused.  I am way too easily distracted.

I am currently watching Gilmore Girls....See, easily distracted!


Wednesday, October 29, 2008

BBM how do I love thee....

I got a blackberry curve about a month ago.  I am 100% in love with this phone.  AND BBM.  Need I say more?  C and I can chat all day and we can finally exchange photos easily!  Woo Hoo!

Today he said:
Between those eyes, lips, boobs, and legs I can't help but be turned on...I am so glad B is a moron.
my response:
I love you.


Tuesday, October 28, 2008

More love

Last night I was chatting online with C.  Turkey came in and said she wanted to chat with me too.  So, he handed her his laptop and she began "chatting" away.  It was too cute.  She was just blah blah blah-ing away, it looked something like this:  weoulagbadfoangaldfadbnadglkjfgna, alkdgdagbiaosfgldkgnorhynd, aoignfdagdk  jewnrofjkfnasodlkpoert982742, etc.  At one point C asked her "Turkey, what are you saying?" She responded, "that says 'I love H', daddy."  So cute!!

Also, my very favorite part of the picture are her toes.  I can tell that she was moving them around while she was chatting with me.  Precious.  I'll be happy to borrow her anytime!

Monday, October 27, 2008


Guess what!?  He loves me.  He told me last night.  And I love him.  I have for a while.  I am not sure when....but really it's been a little bit.  He's awesome.

Then today....

He picked up the Tumble Turkey and she wanted to call me!  C asked TT if she wanted to call his mom and say Hi and she said "No, let's call the girl I told I was in the dungeon.  You know.  Let's call H".  

Fantastic.  I am in love with 2 people at once.  Now I understand how people can do that....  


Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Retail Therapy=Wonderful Wednesday

Today my mom got on my nerves.  She was mean a couple of times - not to me - to other people - other people who didn't deserve it....She was talking about one person being fat and then she got sassy when I said someone wouldn't care about xyz....Bah Humbug!

I was grouchy - So I went shopping.  Shopping made it a Wonderful Wednesday!

I got some frillies for my C.  
I got some new jeans - I paid way too much.
I got a new ring and a long faux pearl necklace - ala Carrie Bradshaw.

It was good.  It felt lovely.


Tuesday, October 21, 2008


So I was bbm-ing with the ex's girlfriend yesterday.  She sent me a picture of a couple of pumpkins that the ex and her kids carved.  

I replied - that's great, I wonder if he will help you decorate the Christmas tree - he never did that with me.  

her: yeah - he really does some things that annoy me - I am sure they annoyed you too....but I know life can't be perfect.

me:  really?  because my life is perfect.  - I wasn't trying to give her a dig - but can be.  There is no reason you can't be with someone who really truly makes you happy - happy all the time.

her:  well, I am happy - super duper happy....

Just some food for thought.


Sunday, October 19, 2008

May I?

I have gotten the opportunity to spend a little time with C's daughter the last few weeks.  She is a doll.  Here are things that have caused me to melt into a puddle on the floor:

  • May I have some of your pickle?  Followed by her taking the tiniest bite out of the seed area.  
  • What does it taste like? Me: Popsicles E: May I taste it?  Followed by her licking the top of the lid and then tasting and asking, May I have all of this?
  • Hil-we, you want to color with me?
  • Her acting shy then slowly coming closer to me on the couch and finally saying, Um, if it's alright may I sit in your lap?
  • Seeing she and C interact.  They make me happy.

So hot.

Today, we went to Gabriel's baptism and he looked amazing.  See above....  He was wearing a 3 piece suit and a great turquoise tie.  I was wearing a low cut black dress and leopard heels.  We looked good...He is way way to handsome for me....  

Rewind to last week:

I was in Kansas all week last as soon as I got home I ran to C's arms.  I couldn't wait to get to him.  I went there on Friday night, we went to dinner, and then we drove around looking at homes we couldn't afford unless we won the lottery.  Yesterday he came up here - later than planned - but that's fine, we made dinner and enjoyed ourselves.  It seems that everything in our relationship is simple and organic.  I know I have said these things before - but it is so cool.

I am so glad I have him.  


Wednesday, October 15, 2008

A new favorite

I little while back I told C that my mom always made me scrub my elbows.  Kinda like some moms say "wash behind your ears", mine would say "scrub your elbows really good, ok!?!".  Now everytime we are showering he takes time to scrub my elbows.  It's really sweet.  Maybe, I might just love him.

Sunday, October 12, 2008


I have such a wonderfully blessed life.  I am so glad that God has brought C into my life.  On top of that he blessed me with wonderful friends and a good job (it annoys me sometimes but it's a good job).  It's a short post but I just want to say thank you to all the people in my life who are awesome and who support me.  And, thanks to God for giving you all to me.


Friday, October 10, 2008


Gosh!  Jeff was right when he said there was a serious case of the "Pregnancy Flu" going around.  I currently have 4 pregnant friends and a friend who just had a baby 10 days ago.  Not to mention Emma and Zaya who were born in April and August.  There are so many babies to love and even though it makes me very happy to love them, it makes me sad that I can't have one.  

How on earth am I working on getting divorced and dating a man who lives 3 hours away and thinking I really want to have a baby?  How can my clock be ticking so loudly at such a horrible time in my life?  I am in between.  I am happy with my new manfriend.  Very, very happy.  But not at all in a place where I should be thinking about having a teenie bundle of joy.  


Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Finally something's wrong with him...

Yesterday I finally figured out something that is wrong with my new manfriend.  When you go places ie. the store, the mall, etc - he gets out of the car and walks away.  He doesn't wait for me to get out and walk with me - he just takes off.  I don't like that.  I will have to work on that with him because that is a stunt I pull if I am pissed off.  hmmmm.

on a lighter note....

We went to Paula's yesterday for dinner and to take some pictures of her new little one.  The pictures turned out horribly because of the lighting and Gabriel moving around a lot - but dinner was good and I think we had fun.  

All for now,

Friday, October 3, 2008

Funny Story

So, I got a phone call a little bit ago....

My friend Brad called....He told me that he has to be the best man in his sister's wedding tomorrow because the original best man has to work....How is it possible that someone has to work the weekend of a wedding that they have been planning on for months?  

Anyway - he wasn't super supportive of this wedding in the first place...Only because he thinks they are rushing in....And now HAHAHAHAHA he has to put on a big smiley face and rock out as the best best man ever!


Saturday, September 27, 2008

Working on it.

I have a big post I am working on so that is what the big delay has been as of late.  More later.

Going to the UK/WKU game tonight.  I am excited and I hope the weather is beautiful.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

10 on Tuesday

10 about my childhood.

1.  I didn't have cable tv until middle school.  Not because we couldn't afford it or because it wasn't offered in our area - we didn't have it just because my parents knew we could live without it.  We could and the world was fine.  I watched Emergency 911, Beverly Hills 90210, and TGIF.
2.  I spent several weeks a summer in Kentucky.  Usually a week with each of my grandparents and 2 weeks with my dad and step mom.  Each week was very different.  At Nannie's we laked and played with puppies and watched Uncle Buck and Steel Magnolias over and over.  At Grandma and Grandpa Jones' I ate 3 home cooked meals a day, went to Vacation Bible School, and watched Grandpa work.  He upholstered furniture.  At my dad's I went to the pool daily and OMG watched cable tv.  Usually the disney channel, because it rawked!
3.  I went to 4 school systems and lived in 3 different states.  I went to 1st-6th grade in Durham, NC.  I went to 7th and 8th grade in Grapevine, TX.  I then moved back to NC and went to 9th grade and half of 10th grade in Roxboro, NC.  Lastly, I went to the second half of 10th grade all the way thru graduation in Franklin, IN.  I loved moving around.  And now I love facebook and myspace because I can keep up with all those people who were in my life in all those schools.
4.  I always knew what I was getting for Christmas.  I always snooped and found all my presents.  I just started being surprised the last 2 years.  I hate surprises.  
5.  I took dance classes.  Clogging, pointe ballet, and tumbling.
6.  I had a huge crush on a boy named Guy Tomcheck.  My parents called him Guy Upchuck.
7.  I was on a city swim team in middle school.  I loved practice and hated competing.  I was too nervous.
8.  I went to daycare everyday both before and after school from 1st thru 5th grade.  It was called Land of the Little People.  The bus picked me up there and dropped my off there.  My "teacher's" name was Vic.  I think I loved him.  I wish I knew his last name so I could find him online and send him and email.  He was a huge part of my life.
9.  I got a cat as a gift for rocking as a 1st grader.  He was an orange tabby named Nana or Nanners.  I loved him.  He lived for 16 years.  He passed away when I was a senior in college.  He almost was with me thru all of school.  He was a great cat.
10.  I got a dog when I moved to Texas.  Her name was Buckie.  She was an italian greyhound.  My parents have had 2 more since.  Tara and Kringle.  Buck died in January of 2006.  She was a good girl.

Now you know.

Monday, September 22, 2008


The line below is from the song Love Remains the Same by Gavin Rossdale.

"I never thought that I had anymore to give"

This is how I felt when Brad and I were going thru hard times and once I was alone.  I didn't think I had anymore love to give to anyone else or to myself.  I was sad and grey feeling on the inside.  Well, I was wrong.  I am learning - very quickly - that it is really easy to love both to give it and to receive it.  Love has a never ending supply.  All I have to do is grab some and give it out.  It is a beautiful thing.


Sunday, September 21, 2008

Gone too Soon.

Yesterday I got a call from Rachel.  She told me that her HS boyfriend Charlie May had been killed in a motorcycle accident.  It is so very sad for so many reasons.  Charlie was a good kid.  He was set to get married in November and it seemed like his life was just beginning.  I feel horrible for his parents, his sister, and especially Stacey.  I can't imagine being in her position.  Having to bury the man that you love, the man that you were supposed to spend the rest of your life with.  I just can't put myself in her shoes.  I can't even begin to think about going home to my closet and seeing my wedding dress hanging there, looking at the photos on the wall of our recent engagement photo session....Having to cancel plans.  It is just so very sad.  I hope somewhere in all this that family and Charlie's friends (much closer friends than me) can find peace in the knowledge that he is in a better place.  


Thursday, September 18, 2008

New texts. Maybe I shouldn't post these....

Here is the series:

H:  you have no idea.  I mean I suppose you do...
C:  I do have somewhat of an idea, yes...
H: What do you know about me?
C: What do I know about you...a few are a very passionate person, you have been hurt so you try to be very reserved when you think of me, but your passion keeps getting the best of you, you are a beautiful woman (inside and out) but I am probably the first to point out those qualities aside from have no idea just how attractive and desirable you actually are...and when you fall, you will jump in with both feet, completely.....

It is getting serious.....

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

How Sweet

Another week, another good time with my friend.  What on earth did I do to deserve him in my life?  He is so so very sweet and wonderful.  We have been seeing each other for 7 weeks now....How did that happen?  It is interesting and delicious how things work out, God has blessed me in so many ways.  I just have to stop and remind myself sometimes that this isn't forever.  There is nothing saying that he will still be a part of my life tomorrow or even later today....but he says he isn't running away.    


Saturday, September 13, 2008

The Women - A Review

I went to see The Women last night.  I was lonely and didn't want to stay home alone.  

The movie moved at a pretty fast pace.  Betrayal of a marriage and Betrayal in a friendship makes it look like Mary's life is pretty much ruined, but she doesn't allow that to happen.  There are little bits and bobs of other things going on...but really the movie was not life effecting.  I don't feel like I wasted my money seeing it or my time....but I don't really remember anything wonderful about the movie at all.  There were a few funny lines, but really nothing super.

Go see it....Just don't expect much just enjoy those 114 minutes of your life.  Relax.


Thursday, September 11, 2008

He just left....

and I already miss him.  What on earth would it be like if we got to be together all the time?  Would I get annoyed by him?  Would he get annoyed by me?  I mean we both have failed marriages behind what would keep us from failing again?

on a lighter note

He has been here since Tuesday.  He met some of my closest friends and everything seemed to go pretty well.  I didn't tell him to "shut up" at any point this time around.  Funny story about that - on the way to the lake for Labor Day he mentioned that he can't tolerate someone telling him to "chill out" - I promised him I would never do that - mainly because I never say "chill out" so why would I?  I went on to say that I hate being told to "Shut Up" in a fight.  It is one thing to jokingly say "oh shut up, silly" or something of that nature - but it is different to say it in a fight.  It has only happened once - and it didn't go over well at all....ANYWAY - but then I proceeded to tell him to "shut up" all damn weekend.  It was horrible!  He was being silly and picking and whatnot and I did it, I told him to "shut up" and it was horrible.  :(  But, that's that.  
I really like him.  It is really scary.  I don't want to get hurt.  I don't want to hurt him - but I know that won't hurting him, because I am crazy about this one.  How in the hell did this happen?


Monday, September 8, 2008

Hi, I'm scared. Nice to meet you.

So.  (I think I start all my posts with "So.")

My new manfriend and I are going down a very dangerous path very quickly.  The dangerous path of L-O-V-E.

The other day we were joking about me moving in next door to him.  That is kind of a running joke with us.  I want to move and he always says "Well, the house next door is still for sale".  

We were joking about that and he went on to say "You know our luck, you'll move here and then I will get the job in Indiana and we'll be in the same situation" and I responded "If we want 'us' to work out then we will figure it out".  Hmmmm....This opened up the can of worms.  He responded "what do you think about us?"

 YIKES.  I mean, I am crazy about him.  Crazy.  I am just scared to death about it because how in the hell did this happen?  How did I kick out my husband less than 2 months ago and I already find myself in very serious like with someone else?  Holy Crap.

I responded to him and said "I like you and I have a great time with you.  I think we have lots in common and there is a lot of potential....what do you think?"  He responded "I like you a lot, you are a great person and we do have a ton of fun together....I enjoy spending time with you and all of your family.  You are great in the have a great outlook on life...and you are making it very hard for me to not fall for you."  Holy Crap.  So I asked what I can do to help him with this fall.  His response "Fall with me so we can cushion each other".  Swoon.

Here is how I feel about him for real:  He is amazing.  He is wonderful.  He is pretty much everything I could ask for.  The only thing he isn't (and I am perfectly fine with it) is a vegetarian.  He reads books, he cooks, he loves his little girl so much, he watches food network and football, he keeps a pretty clean house, he doesn't wear shoes in his house, he is a Christian, oh I don't know...he is so much.  AND he seems to be crazy about me too.  He is very sweet to me.  

I am scared to fall for this one.  He is so wonderful.  I don't want to hurt him and I don't want to be hurt.  Yikes.


Sunday, September 7, 2008


This month my church is doing a series on bridging divisions.  Today was about bringing together different religions.  I was really excited about the sermon - until I realized that all he was talking about was planting seeds with people of other religions so they will change to Christianity....That is not bridging that is changing.  I know in my heart of hearts that God wants us as Christians to witness to people and draw them closer to Him.  So, yes, I understand the sermon and I get what the pastor was coaching us on....but don't call it bridging when it clearly isn't.  You are not bridging a divide when you are converting people.  All you are doing is bringing them to "your side"....


Friday, September 5, 2008

Green Gum

So, I totally don't chew green gum....BUT I really like Doublemint Gum and it is now green. I won't chew it anymore.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Spoil or Be Spoiled?

Is it better to spoil someone or to be spoiled by someone?  This is an important question....

It is great to be spoiled - obviously...but isn't it kind of selfish?

It is fantastic to spoil other people too - but - what happens when they don't appreciate it?

What are your thoughts?

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Frequently Visited

I am a bit over obsessed with my internet...

Here are the pages I frequent:


Search for these:
the painted house
An Odyssey of Marriage
Princess Pigbear
3 carrs

More later!


Vacation Day

I took a vacation day both yesterday and today.  Yesterday I was at the lake.  Today I am home.  I feel crappy and I am going to the doctor at 310p.  I am upset that there wasn't an earlier appointment....but there is nothing that I can do about it.

So, did I mention that I had a great weekend?!?!  Got to hang with my new friend until this morning.  He is so cute.  He is so sweet.  He makes me crazy.


Friday, August 29, 2008

Txt Msg

So I got a text from the ex's girlfriend the other day.  I am going to post it here and my response.

Hi there I have put text together and thought about emails i could send you in my head and get caught with my thoughts and words i owe you a lot more than a apology I miss you often I understand if you hate me I dont know what to expect but I do want you to know I regret what I did to our friendship you were one of the truest friends I have ever had I dont understand why thing happened the way they did I just believe somewhere there is a ultimate plan for all of us and I hope someday it will make sense and on some level we can fit into each others lives again
Aug 27, 11:43am

I am not really sure how to respond to this but I guess I will just say what I have said to all the people who say "oh my gosh I am so sorry you are getting divorced" ... It's ok.  I am happy now, happier than I have been in years.  I haven't really even cried since I told Brad to leave and go be with you.  I am sorry you did what you did to our friendship too.  And I miss you too...but it will never bee the way it was.  I can't trust you .... you and Brad are a huge part of my life and i want you both to be happy.  I sincerely hope you never hurt each other the way you both hurt me.  You are stil a part of my life since Brad and I are trying to stay friends.  You and I are friends by default.  I will never be rude to you or treat you badly, it's just not in my nature to be that way.  I am at peace with the cards God dealt me.
Aug 28, 4:32pm

So there you go.  


Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Wonderful Wednesday

So, yesterday I totally planned on doing a 10 on Tuesday post.  Haha!  That didn't happen.  So - here's a 10 on Weds.

10.  I really like being friends with my ex.  It keeps things semi-normal but also proves to us that we just were doomed from the start.

9.  The ex mowed my yard for me yesterday.  I was having a guest and was in a panic - he called (I am yet to figure out why) and I asked - he came thru.  

8.  I have to go to Michigan today - and I don't have anyone to watch my pups.  I know people do it all the time - but I don't!! - I am going to leave them out in the backyard.  I will be home asap tomorrow....

7.  I made swordfish steaks last night for dinner.  They were pretty good.  Go me!

6.  I made sweetened ricotta for dessert last night.  It was good as always.

5.  I found a new great show called Million Dollar Listing last night.  It was enjoyable.  3 young Realtors out in Malibu.  Super.

4.  I am going to the lake again this weekend - my new friend is coming too.  We are tent camping this time around.  It will be eventful - I am sure.

3.  The tent will probably shake more than the pop-up did last weekend.

2.  I have the best life right now.  All is well.

1.  Grown-up sleepovers with clothing optional rules are fun.


Monday, August 25, 2008

Last weekend

This past weekend my new friend and I went to the lake.  It was a really good time.  We went out on the boat on Saturday evening and on Sunday.  We both got a little sunburned but we didn't complain.  

Mom met the new friend and I am pretty sure she approves.  She says 'he is a cutie and he is polite so...I guess he's OK".  

We are going back this weekend too - so hopefully that will go well.  OH and he is coming here to play house with me tomorrow.

More on that later.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

I need to post!

Ug, I hate doing this but I need to post - I can't let my blogging go by the wayside or I will never get back to it.  

So, I thought I was going to have a SUPER exciting and crazy weekend but, the plans have is what I thought I was going to get to do:

So, my new friend bought a motorcycle on Ebay....and the shipping people were being we decided to be crazier and DRIVE TO NEW JERSEY to get it.  BUT plans changed, he found different shipping, and we are just going to stay home. 

I know it will still be exciting - in different ways - but I was kind of looking forward to going to NJ.  I have never been there...


Sunday, August 17, 2008


Shortly after I wrote my last post I decided to call my mom.  We talked for an hour.  All is well in the world thank goodness!

I ran into a friend from college at the Sugarland ... and we played catch up yesterday.  We hadn't hung out in like 6 years - needless to say - it took about 6 hours to catch up.  Good times.


Thursday, August 14, 2008

The Blahs

Today I am feeling the blahs.  I equate the blahs to loneliness.  

Monday I got in a huge argument with my mom.  I was over at her house giving her a few photos I printed out for Uncle G.  We were chatting and she said something borderline mean about my girlfriends so I responded, "Wow, it really seems like as of late you are discounting my friends a lot..." and left it at that.  Well, I left her house and got on the road to head to Seymour for work and she called me...  She wanted to know what I meant about that statement.  So I told her, "you have just been making comments to me about my friends that aren't nice and it upsets me." Her response was crazy "fine you don't have to talk to me about them anymore".  Well long story short we rolled from this to how she isn't supporting me in the divorce and she is being cold shouldered and kinda taking B's side - as if he deserves that.  She didn't support me for 8 months when I was trying to make things work and now that I know for sure I want to divorce him, she isn't supporting me there either.  I ended up hanging up on her and I haven't talked to her since.  

Why can't she just be happy that I am happy and that I am no longer in a horrible marriage?  Why on earth would MY MOTHER ever say to me that she wants me to forgive him and forget what he did and move on with life?  Why would she want me to stay married to him?

Monday, August 11, 2008

I lost count....

Um, ok, so I went to visit my new friend this weekend.  And, I am in serious like with him.  It's sad.  I have a feeling it is all silliness because I am craving attention....that I haven't gotten in years.  But, boy does he know how to give it.  I have lost count of all the ways I adore him.  I also lost count of other things....  It was that hot. 

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Life story chapter 2

Summer 2001
We were pals.  Our schedule was great then.  I volunteered to work as much as I could after Summer School.  The store was only open from 9-6 during the week and 10-4 on Saturdays.  Anywho.  The money was great compared to working at the candy store.  I had seemingly unlimited funds.  I learned that she and I worked in the same mall before this job, but we never met.  

I got to meet her husband and some other members of her family that summer at cookouts.  Her little girl was really cute.  And really shy.  She took after her daddy.  The husband.  D - he was cute.  Shy, quiet, and awkward.  He was a very picky eater and he worked at a factory.  He is still all those things.  She treated him like a steak.  She would make him spin so she could show off his butt to her friends...she would tell people to grab it if they wanted to.  He was painfully shy - poor guy, I am not sure how he took that punishment.  It was a good thing he was so shy and awkward though, because even if he wanted to, he couldn't get a word in.  She talked to damn much.  And, she was too damn nice to everyone.  Too nice.  I should have judged her for that. 


Today is my Mama's birthday!  Happy Birthday Mama!

Sunday, August 3, 2008

Wishy Washy? take two

I don't really think he is wishy washy at all today....I think I have just gotten used to him paying a lot of attention to me and when he is busy with other things I get lonely.  

Also, I introduced him to twitter and he has been tweet flirting with me....  Very Interesting.


So, this morning I went to church with D & AB - remember I mentioned earlier that I was concerned that AB wasn't going to be supportive of my new manfriend....Well, it kinda sounds like all is ok in that realm.  It's not like she was super excited - ala Cope - but she didn't seem disappointed in me or anything either.  

We'll see what develops.


Saturday, August 2, 2008

Wishy Washy

I know I shouldn't feel this was but I fear that my manfriend is a bit wishy washy.  I know I should just have fun with him when I can and brush it off when I can't....but I am afraid I am already a wee bit attached.  

I hope I am wrong.

Friday, August 1, 2008


So, it's been 3 weeks since I kicked him out.  3 weeks and I have only seen him twice - maybe 3 times.  My memory is not so good when it comes to him.  

I feel good.  I am happy.  Things are under control.

Thank God for all those things.

I do have a minor problemo right now though.  I got a call yesterday from my close friend AB.  She was calling to ask about my trip to KY last weekend.  SO - I spilled the beans about my manfriend and how he is super sweet and he treats me nicely and he is totally opposite of you know who.  She didn't seem thrilled.  

SO, this morning I emailed her from work and basically said - I hope you aren't mad at me for finding a kind person to spend time with.  The email was a bit longer - but here's the kicker....she didn't respond.  I am kinda sad and worried that she really is grouchy with me....We'll see.


Thursday, July 31, 2008

From the very beginning - a very good place to start...

June 2001
I was young.  Not even 20 yet.  I would be starting my junior year of college in the fall, but this June I was beginning a new job.  Wireless, the place to be right?  I knew that morning I was going to training and there would be another new person who would be doing the same job as me in the same store.  I was excited to meet her.  Class began and she was nowhere to be found.    We went around the room and introduced ourselves.  I knew her name so I listened - and no one said that name - she was not there.  I should have judged her for that.  She was late.  About 5 mins later she bounded into the room wearing a sundress, full of excuses as to why she wasn't there on time.  I should have judged her for that.  I should have placed judgement on that sundress.  A little under dressed and a little revealing for a first impression, but whatever.  Some how we hit it off from the start.  She was older than me, married, with a little girl.  She drove a minivan.  We went to lunch with all the people in the class and she talked and talked about how perfect her little life was.  Great, I love happy people.  I am glad to have met this new friend!

Everyday she was there.  Everyday she was happy for me to come to work.  I was only part-time so I was kinda like a 4 hour Soap break for the housewives.  I could talk to her about anything it seemed and she was supportive and excited when she needed to be and sympathetic and full of advice when I needed that.  She was like the best older sister ever.  I could tell her anything and she wouldn't run off and tell Mom and Dad.  I told her all about my awesome boyfriend.  He and I had been dating for about a year and a half at that point.  I loved him so much.  

More later.....


Why is it that I make people uncomfortable?  Why is it that I did nothing wrong and I make people uncomfortable?  He cheated, he lied, he screwed me over - and I make people uncomfortable. 

I got a call today - I was told that I make the soon to be Ex-SIL too uncomfortable to be able to go to a girly pre-wedding party with a group of friends.  

Yesterday I was told I am not to attend the wedding of said bride.  

Why?  Why is it that I am causing so many problems?

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Sore Throat.

Today, I have a sore throat.  It makes me really sad.  

Also, today I lost my shit a little.  I need to stop allowing things and people get in the way of what I want.  

I am so tired of hearing Mom say "well, you need to do what you need to do".  WTF does that mean?  Let me tell you - I am not you, we are very similar, but I am not you.  AND, I am absolutely not you 25 years ago when your marriage fell apart due to an affair.  I am not still super attached to him.  As a matter of fact - I am so over his crap if I could I would send him to another planet to be all alone!

He came over today you know....He was all crying and pouty because he had read my twitter account and seen my flickr.  OH well buckaroo!  Oh well, I have found someone to play with who treats me well.  Get over it.  You have no right to be jealous - none what-so-ever.  You CHEATED on my with my BEST FRIEND.  You have no room to speak!

Monday, July 28, 2008

A few days

So, the past few days have been quite an adventure.  Starting Friday - Friday around 330p my new manfriend txts me and says "I thought maybe I would just come there"....I doubted him, but guess what, he showed up.  Holy crap.  Saturday - I went to his place and stayed both Saturday night and Sunday night.  He cooked me dinner and two breakfasts.  He is a good cook.  We watched Food Network and cuddled on the couch and IMHO had a really nice weekend.  I think he agrees.  He said we should do it again....  


Wednesday, July 23, 2008

First Date...

So, yesterday I had a date...It was a long date and it was a really nice time.  There was kissing.  I liked it.  There was cheesecake.  I liked it.  *sigh* We are getting together on Sunday.  More on that later.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Today is sad

Hi All,
I am writing a quick post to say that today will be a sad day.  My college Delta Gamma chapter is officially closing.  We are having a ceremony around 2.  I fear there will be some tears.

Kiss Kiss,

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Oh how time changes....

So, who on earth would think that I could be this happy and this giddy so few days after I decided to end my marriage?  It is amazing.  The difference between me and my attitude and hell, my complexion between last Thursday and today - is insanely wonderful.  

Today is my birthday!  I have a wedding to shoot.  And, the downside is that I do have to see that pesky liar - and his whole family.  Wish me luck!  I know it is going to be ok...I am just a bit nervous.

So, here is the big change in me:  Doing what I want!  It is super not having to worry about what he wants to do or having to alter plans because he is pissy.  What a great time it has been!  


Tuesday, July 15, 2008


How innappropriate is it that I have a crush on someone?  I mean for real, I have been 'single' for all of 5 days.  

Sunday, July 13, 2008

So it begins....

Ok, so here goes nothing.  I can guarantee that this will not be all that entertaining, nor will it be politically or grammatically correct, but it should be something for me to fill my days with.  

My life has changed.  As of July 10th the world as I know it has been altered.  I kicked him out.  I packed his clothes - all but a few hanging shirts that he never wears anyway - and told him to leave.  And, I haven't heard from him since.  

I will try in the next few weeks to tell the whole story - with changed names - so that I can learn from this and maybe others can too.

Kiss Kiss,