Friday, August 29, 2008

Txt Msg

So I got a text from the ex's girlfriend the other day.  I am going to post it here and my response.

Hi there I have put text together and thought about emails i could send you in my head and get caught with my thoughts and words i owe you a lot more than a apology I miss you often I understand if you hate me I dont know what to expect but I do want you to know I regret what I did to our friendship you were one of the truest friends I have ever had I dont understand why thing happened the way they did I just believe somewhere there is a ultimate plan for all of us and I hope someday it will make sense and on some level we can fit into each others lives again
Aug 27, 11:43am

I am not really sure how to respond to this but I guess I will just say what I have said to all the people who say "oh my gosh I am so sorry you are getting divorced" ... It's ok.  I am happy now, happier than I have been in years.  I haven't really even cried since I told Brad to leave and go be with you.  I am sorry you did what you did to our friendship too.  And I miss you too...but it will never bee the way it was.  I can't trust you .... you and Brad are a huge part of my life and i want you both to be happy.  I sincerely hope you never hurt each other the way you both hurt me.  You are stil a part of my life since Brad and I are trying to stay friends.  You and I are friends by default.  I will never be rude to you or treat you badly, it's just not in my nature to be that way.  I am at peace with the cards God dealt me.
Aug 28, 4:32pm

So there you go.  


Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Wonderful Wednesday

So, yesterday I totally planned on doing a 10 on Tuesday post.  Haha!  That didn't happen.  So - here's a 10 on Weds.

10.  I really like being friends with my ex.  It keeps things semi-normal but also proves to us that we just were doomed from the start.

9.  The ex mowed my yard for me yesterday.  I was having a guest and was in a panic - he called (I am yet to figure out why) and I asked - he came thru.  

8.  I have to go to Michigan today - and I don't have anyone to watch my pups.  I know people do it all the time - but I don't!! - I am going to leave them out in the backyard.  I will be home asap tomorrow....

7.  I made swordfish steaks last night for dinner.  They were pretty good.  Go me!

6.  I made sweetened ricotta for dessert last night.  It was good as always.

5.  I found a new great show called Million Dollar Listing last night.  It was enjoyable.  3 young Realtors out in Malibu.  Super.

4.  I am going to the lake again this weekend - my new friend is coming too.  We are tent camping this time around.  It will be eventful - I am sure.

3.  The tent will probably shake more than the pop-up did last weekend.

2.  I have the best life right now.  All is well.

1.  Grown-up sleepovers with clothing optional rules are fun.


Monday, August 25, 2008

Last weekend

This past weekend my new friend and I went to the lake.  It was a really good time.  We went out on the boat on Saturday evening and on Sunday.  We both got a little sunburned but we didn't complain.  

Mom met the new friend and I am pretty sure she approves.  She says 'he is a cutie and he is polite so...I guess he's OK".  

We are going back this weekend too - so hopefully that will go well.  OH and he is coming here to play house with me tomorrow.

More on that later.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

I need to post!

Ug, I hate doing this but I need to post - I can't let my blogging go by the wayside or I will never get back to it.  

So, I thought I was going to have a SUPER exciting and crazy weekend but, the plans have is what I thought I was going to get to do:

So, my new friend bought a motorcycle on Ebay....and the shipping people were being we decided to be crazier and DRIVE TO NEW JERSEY to get it.  BUT plans changed, he found different shipping, and we are just going to stay home. 

I know it will still be exciting - in different ways - but I was kind of looking forward to going to NJ.  I have never been there...


Sunday, August 17, 2008


Shortly after I wrote my last post I decided to call my mom.  We talked for an hour.  All is well in the world thank goodness!

I ran into a friend from college at the Sugarland ... and we played catch up yesterday.  We hadn't hung out in like 6 years - needless to say - it took about 6 hours to catch up.  Good times.


Thursday, August 14, 2008

The Blahs

Today I am feeling the blahs.  I equate the blahs to loneliness.  

Monday I got in a huge argument with my mom.  I was over at her house giving her a few photos I printed out for Uncle G.  We were chatting and she said something borderline mean about my girlfriends so I responded, "Wow, it really seems like as of late you are discounting my friends a lot..." and left it at that.  Well, I left her house and got on the road to head to Seymour for work and she called me...  She wanted to know what I meant about that statement.  So I told her, "you have just been making comments to me about my friends that aren't nice and it upsets me." Her response was crazy "fine you don't have to talk to me about them anymore".  Well long story short we rolled from this to how she isn't supporting me in the divorce and she is being cold shouldered and kinda taking B's side - as if he deserves that.  She didn't support me for 8 months when I was trying to make things work and now that I know for sure I want to divorce him, she isn't supporting me there either.  I ended up hanging up on her and I haven't talked to her since.  

Why can't she just be happy that I am happy and that I am no longer in a horrible marriage?  Why on earth would MY MOTHER ever say to me that she wants me to forgive him and forget what he did and move on with life?  Why would she want me to stay married to him?

Monday, August 11, 2008

I lost count....

Um, ok, so I went to visit my new friend this weekend.  And, I am in serious like with him.  It's sad.  I have a feeling it is all silliness because I am craving attention....that I haven't gotten in years.  But, boy does he know how to give it.  I have lost count of all the ways I adore him.  I also lost count of other things....  It was that hot. 

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Life story chapter 2

Summer 2001
We were pals.  Our schedule was great then.  I volunteered to work as much as I could after Summer School.  The store was only open from 9-6 during the week and 10-4 on Saturdays.  Anywho.  The money was great compared to working at the candy store.  I had seemingly unlimited funds.  I learned that she and I worked in the same mall before this job, but we never met.  

I got to meet her husband and some other members of her family that summer at cookouts.  Her little girl was really cute.  And really shy.  She took after her daddy.  The husband.  D - he was cute.  Shy, quiet, and awkward.  He was a very picky eater and he worked at a factory.  He is still all those things.  She treated him like a steak.  She would make him spin so she could show off his butt to her friends...she would tell people to grab it if they wanted to.  He was painfully shy - poor guy, I am not sure how he took that punishment.  It was a good thing he was so shy and awkward though, because even if he wanted to, he couldn't get a word in.  She talked to damn much.  And, she was too damn nice to everyone.  Too nice.  I should have judged her for that. 


Today is my Mama's birthday!  Happy Birthday Mama!

Sunday, August 3, 2008

Wishy Washy? take two

I don't really think he is wishy washy at all today....I think I have just gotten used to him paying a lot of attention to me and when he is busy with other things I get lonely.  

Also, I introduced him to twitter and he has been tweet flirting with me....  Very Interesting.


So, this morning I went to church with D & AB - remember I mentioned earlier that I was concerned that AB wasn't going to be supportive of my new manfriend....Well, it kinda sounds like all is ok in that realm.  It's not like she was super excited - ala Cope - but she didn't seem disappointed in me or anything either.  

We'll see what develops.


Saturday, August 2, 2008

Wishy Washy

I know I shouldn't feel this was but I fear that my manfriend is a bit wishy washy.  I know I should just have fun with him when I can and brush it off when I can't....but I am afraid I am already a wee bit attached.  

I hope I am wrong.

Friday, August 1, 2008


So, it's been 3 weeks since I kicked him out.  3 weeks and I have only seen him twice - maybe 3 times.  My memory is not so good when it comes to him.  

I feel good.  I am happy.  Things are under control.

Thank God for all those things.

I do have a minor problemo right now though.  I got a call yesterday from my close friend AB.  She was calling to ask about my trip to KY last weekend.  SO - I spilled the beans about my manfriend and how he is super sweet and he treats me nicely and he is totally opposite of you know who.  She didn't seem thrilled.  

SO, this morning I emailed her from work and basically said - I hope you aren't mad at me for finding a kind person to spend time with.  The email was a bit longer - but here's the kicker....she didn't respond.  I am kinda sad and worried that she really is grouchy with me....We'll see.